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Your words impact the universe.
Your vibes impact the universe.
Alignment increases your impact.
Laughter filled the air as smiling faces hugged and congratulated one another, this is how the Washington D. C. arts festival performance ended. As a trained West African dancer, I completely out of my comfort zone and very proud of myself for performing in this Modern Dance based piece. Not only was the technique something new, but the content of the show was heavy and way too personal. The narrative dealt with a woman...a mother of three stepping into a new day, after separating from her husband and shedding the layers of trauma. The universe is so funny/deliberate as I know the choreographer had no idea how close this was to my real life. The performance developed very shortly after I separated from my then-husband and a heartbroken me needed something productive to dive into. Dance has long since been used as a modality for healing, so it seemed more than coincidental that this opportunity fell in my lap. Becoming a guest artist with the company was a great distraction, an opportunity for me to grow as a dancer, and a modality to heal my spirit.
Your words impact the universe.
What do you want?
By the sound of the applauds, I could tell the performance was well received. A few audience members even commented about the pleasant surprise of seeing me performing Modern Dance. Laughter filled the air as smiling faces hugged and congratulated one another, but then there was me. I can't quite express the loneliness of standing in the space watching everyone with their loved ones. The success of my performance was overshadowed by my sadness. There was no one there to support me and it was my fault. I was sad and alone because once again I neglected to tell my loved ones about my performance. I failed at using my words to positively impact my universe. What's the saying " a close mouth don't get feed", well my need for support was definitely starving because of my silence. I could have just said something, but I didn't. . . I'd worked so hard for this moment, and while I wanted to share my success something was stopping me.
Your vibes impact the universe.
What do you believe?
They're too busy! They are too busy is the story I tell myself as to why my family can't come to my performances. I'm bothering them, and as a result, I don't deserve their support...this is the belief I held onto. My vibe slowly changed to "I can do this all by myself". Somewhere along the line, my soul took on the belief that my loved ones didn't have the time or patience to care about my dancing. I fed this narrative with all kinds of stories I made up like: they wouldn't like what I do and they wouldn't understand what I do. My "I can do this by myself" vibe left me all by myself.
Alignment increases your impact.
Do your wants and beliefs align?
The message gets muddled when your words and body say two different things.
There was a fair amount of misalignment in my beliefs and wants. I wanted my family with me and believed I didn't deserve it. Once again I am not quite sure how this belief became apart of my being, I can only tell you how it felt. I felt lonely on that D.C. stage and that loneliness was only topped by the 2020 Indiana stage. During the Fall of 2020 I directed my first concert. In the middle of a pandemic, I directed a show that sold out each of its performances. Colleagues and other attendees commented on the meaningfulness of the show, but once again I lacked the very thing that would have been meaningful to me. Once again my loved ones were missing and it was my fault. My world didn't feel right. I managed to share the most vulnerable part of me with everyone but the ones I loved. This is not the impact I intended. In an effort to never feel this kind of failure again, I've decided to run a simple test. My simple test includes speaking about what I truly want and telling the little hurt child in me that I deserve it. This means that I'm texting and calling my loved ones to tell them about my current work/projects. Over the past few weeks, this test has not been easy but it is simple. Repeating the same action and expecting a different result is insanity. Its not always easy to change our thoughts habits and actions, but this simple solution to preventing loneliness I previously felt. Remember to subscribe to the blog so that you can read how this plays out. And check out my current project https://ifundwomen.com/projects/rightingwriting-unwritten
What do you want?
What do you believe?
Do your wants and beliefs align?
Words send a message, and so do your emotions. The message gets muddled when your words and body say two different things. Saying you want a better ...while not believing you deserve it, won’t get it. Sometimes the lack of alignment is due to a hidden message that is either not based on truth or is based on an outdated message. Find the message and edit where necessary.
I’m the words of the wise @laecole: make sure your energy matches your words
✨Your words impact the universe.
✨Your vibes impact the universe.
✨Alignment increases your impact.
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